It's a new year again and I'll have to say that yes it was better than the last. Unfortunately however, this december a Long December by the Counting Crows was once again my theme song. Too bad I suppose. And when I look back although it wasn't horrible in terms of emotional tribulation, it was unproductive and I don't think I have really grown. I currently feel as though I am in a Limbo. One thing that is notable is since the beginning of '09 I grew spritually like I have never before. That was wonderful and it continued through the year. My relationship with God has strengthened. In some ways I have gotten ahead and yet I feel as though I went backwards in other ways--- my social network, I have such troubles keeping up with and caring for my friends. I hate being self centered and selfish. However I know that I have to sacrifice in order to get better. Emotionally I can't deal with other people when I have so much going on in my head and in my life. More to come, these are just some thoughts I have come to terms with.